TO R.
I remember your last text message on me that goes like : " sometimes we put too much passion on the biggest dreams in life that we fail to love the smallest pleasures from simple things.."I just realized now how much I took your presence for granted. I don't think i was able to show appreciation for all the things, big or small, that you've done.I don't even think I was able to say Thank you.So please let me try to recall them and let me say thank you:
For introducing me to your mom and to your friends on the first time that we met.
For taking time to answer my senseless text messages even you are busy reviewing for your exam.
For taking me to the hospital when I felt that I can't go to work anymore because of my tonsilitis.
For trusting me of all your secrets.
For being the very first person to greet me on my birthday, when I, forgot when your birthday is.
For being one of the few person I know who believe that there can still be true love for people like us.
There are still a lot of other things that you taught me and that you've done for me but I feel like if I would try to remember them, it will just bring a lot of pain to me.You know me,I am a very sentimental person.But right now I am sorry, I failed to remember all of the good memories.To tell you honestly,I am really sad that beautiful things will just end like this.
I remember that day I asked you if I can go with you on your trip to Galera.You said no,I can't.You said you will be with someone.It was the first time that I heard you saying that you are already tired of waiting.That one year of waiting is too much.That you cannot be a with a person who des not want a commitment.That you have to say goodbye.
I can see pain when you uttered those words.I did not demand for explanation because I know all my shortcomings.
But I am glad and I thank that you've been honest with your feelings.Right now, I am at the point of denial that this is really happening.I still cannot accept the fact that you have already found someone.I also realized how stupid I am for letting you go.
I wanted to tell that I am happy but I don't wanna betray my feelings.I know it will be stupid of me to I ask if you still love me.I know you are not gonna answer me.
Maybe I am still a believer of second chances.
And I am hoping that there could still be second chance for us.
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What Might Have Been
Lou pardini
Somewhere, lost in the wind
I'm watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember
Somehow, we said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
Promises too often spoken
Are easily broken apart
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be
A fool wondering what might have been
Trace of forever lingering
Drawing me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt I understand
Just how fragile love can be
I can't forget
Your mem'ry found me
Now I know where I belong
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Through every day, into the night
With only love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I've got to know
What might have been
Let the lovin' decide, I can't run, I can't hide
I want you to know
My heart will show that I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be, a fool wondering what might have been
I've searched everywhere, and nothing compares
When we've got love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I wanna know what might have been
I'm wondering what might have been
We're gonna find what might have been
Oh I wanna know what might have been.