ABNKKPGBLOG N PL AKO!

Nabasa nyo ba yung libro ni Bob Ong na "ABNKKBS N AKO?" Aliw yung librong yun.Sa public school din kasi ko galing, mula elementary hanggang college kaya nakakarelate talaga ko sa mga kuwento nya. Idol ko talaga yang si Bob Ong.Sa friendster, apat lang yata ung nahanap ko na classmates nung elementary.Sinubukan kong hanapin ung iba pero zero results ang lumalabas kapag nagsesearch ako.Twelve years na kasi na hindi ko sila nakikita.Sana nga ngayong December ay magkaroon kami ng reunion.Madalang pa sa patak ng ulan kasi kung mauwi ako ng Olongapo.Kaya nung makita ko ang classmate ko na si Jhona sa Friendster, nagpm (private message) kaagad ako sa kanya.Kamustahan.Updates.Bolahan.Kung may asawa na si ganito.Kung kamusta na ko.Heto dakilang tambay sabi ko. Sa pagpapalitan namin ng kuwento, nabanggit ni Jhona na namatay na yung isa naming classmate, si Jeffrey.nalunod daw nung nagswimming sa San Narciso,Zambales nung nakaraang taon.Kasama niya yung barkada nya, nagswimming don, pero sa kasamaang palad,hindi naging maganda yung pagpunta nila doon.Nagulat ako sa kuwentong ito.Pag mga patay na kasi ang pinaguusapan,iba yung pakiramdam ko. Sobra yung pagkalungkot ko.Naguilty rin ako dahil hindi ko man lang pinuntahan si Jeffrey nung lamay nya.Masaya ring kasama si Jeffrey,naalala ko nung nagkaroon ng Boyscout Jamboree nung Grade six.Magaling na leader si jeff, kaya nung elementary lagi akong naiinggit sa kanya dahil model student sya lagi.Sa mga lalaki sa section namin,kung sa academic ako (naks yabang), siya naman sa leadership.May isa pa kong naalala, nung nagkaroon ng drawing contest before sa Coca Cola, sumali kami ni Jeffrey.Ang ginamit niyang medium ay water color.Magkakasama kaming gumawa nun.Maganda yung gawa ni Jeffrey,pero aksidente talaga at di ko sinasadya, natabig ko yung tubig malapit sa pinagagawan nya at nabuhusan ko yung drawing nya.Doon ko nasubukan yung pasensya ni Jeff.Alam kong pagod na siyang gumawa at alam kong magagalit sya sakin, pero nakita ko na tinanggap nya yung sorry ko at inulit yung ginagawa nya.Bro, kung nasan ka man ngayon, sayang at hindi na kita makikita sa reunion.Pero bro kasama ka sa mga panalangin ko.Alam kong masaya ka kung nasan ka man ngayon. On a lighter note.instructor na pala si Jhona,ung isa kong classmate na nabanggit ko kanina,sa isang government college sa gapo.Nung elementary, nagkaroon ng cultural show sa school dahil may United nations celebration.Dahil singkit ako, naasign akong sumama sa iba pang mga singkit at kailangan naming magpresent ng Japanese dance.Nakasama ko si Jhona sa team na yun.walang magtuturo samin kaya nagbidabida ako, ako ang nagprisintang magturo sa mga kagrupo ko nung sayaw, na ewan ko kung anong dapat itawag dun.Basta yung mga napapanood ko sa TV, inapply ko lang.Hanggang ngaun natatawa pa ko pag naalala ko yun. Ang sabi ko sa kaniladaanin na lang namin sa costume at makeup.carry na yun.Manghihiram kami ng makukulay na kimono,tapos ung mga mata namin pasisingkitin pa namin lalo, yung parang nakapikit lang kami.Dalawa kaming lalaki at tatlo silang babae.Yung mga babae pinahiram ko ng payong, kasi yun yung napapanood ko na mga japanese show may mga payong yung babae na iniikot ikot lang.At kaming dalawa ni Eduardo hinaluan namain ng kaunting martial arts ung sayaw.Kahit nakatawa nakapagperform naman kami ng maayos.At atuwa samin yung mga teacher namin.Marami pa kong kuwento na nangyari nung elementary pero sa mgasusunod ko na lang na entry ilalalagay.

Job Hunting

Nakakaburaot na magapply.Kaninang umaga nagpunta ko sa enterprise center sa makati dahil matagal na kong kinukulit ng drake international(tatlong beses na yata akong tinawagan nito) , isa siyang recruitment firm na humahawak ng mga call centers.Tatlong linggo na kong naghahanap ng trabaho kaya kahit agency pa siya ay papatulan ko na.Hirap akong gumising kanina dahil malamig na ang hangin sa umaga,angsarap matulog.Kungsabagay lagi naman akong hirap gumising, ang gising ko sabi ni nanay gising mayaman, alas dose ng tanghali.Well, at least nakakatipid sya sa almusal ko.Malapit na talaga ang pasko, sobrang lamig na pag madaling araw. Pinilit kong maligo kahit malamig ang tubig at minadali kong ubusin yung nilutong almusal ni nanay.Mabilis naman ang naging biyahe ko, maluwag ang expressway kanina at nakaupo ako sa MRT,bihira lang itong mangyari .Nakarating ako sa Makati ng alas nueve.Biruin nyo isang oras lang ang binyahe ko mula dito sa Bulacan.Angganda talaga ng Makati, angsarap magtrabaho dito. Pero kakalyuhin yata ang mga paa ko sa paglakad, dahil walang ibang paraan para makarating sa ibang building kundi ang lumakad.At kailangan talaga may mapa ako pag pumupunta dito, mahina ako sa direksyon eh, pero makapal naman ang mukha kong magtanong. Sa madaling sabi, nakarating ako sa enterprise center mga 930.Siyempre pa kuntodo ngiti ako sa receptionist at pinilit na gamitin ung American Accent ko na natutuhan ko sa mga call center na pinagtrainingan ko."I have an appointment with Miss so and so...".Pero si Ms so and so ay wala pa daw.Lintsak alas nueve nya ko pinapunta dito ah.may apat akong applicant na kasabay, at isa lang kami ng taong hinihintay.Nakipagusap ako dun sa isa, hindi ko na kasi matandaan kung saan nakuha ung resume ko ng agency na to.Sa dami ba naman ng pinagpasahan ko.Sa jobstreet pala. Isang oras ako naghintay,pilit ko na lang inaliw ang sarili sa palabas sa cable sa reception area. Tinawag kami isa isa ng receptionist at pinakiusap sa telepono, nandun na pala si Ms so and so.Phone Interview siguro ang gagawin, sa loob loob ko.nang ako na ang tinawag, excited pa kong makipagusap.Ang bungad sakin ni Ms so and so,kung may nareceived daw ba kong txt mula sa kanila.Ang txt msg daw na un ay iniinform kami na postpone ang interview."Huwat?!"Imomove daw nila ang interview bukas.Mahinahong makipagusap si Ms so and so.At pilit pa kong inuto na bagong call center daw ung client nila at kung saka-sakali ay mapupunta ko sa pioneer batch.Sinabi kong hindi makakapunta bukas."Ireschedule natin sa Monday."Hindi ako sumagot, ipinasa ko na lang ang telepono sa isa pang aplikante at umalis ako kaagad agad sa building na yun.Habang naglalakad puro tangina ang lumabas sa bibig ko.Akala yata ng mga ito ang lapit lang ng pinangalingan ko.Hindi na ko interesado, hindi lang kau ang call center sa Pinas!Ang saya ng araw na ito.balak ko pa naman sanang magapply pa sa iba (pinaxerox ko ng 6 na kopya ang resume ko)at sayang ung piktyur ko, ipapamigay ko na nga lang sa mga fans ko.kaya ang ginawa ko na lang ay nanood ng sine sa SM.

Ang trabaho ko'y maghanap ng trabaho

Tagalog mode muna.Noon ko pa gustong magsulat sa tagalog subalit dahil nga sa pagkocall center ko kaya't nasimulan ko ang blog na ito sa Inglis,kaya sa ngaun trip ko naman magTaglish. Iniisip ko kung babaguhin ko na rin ang format ng blog ko,ayoko na munang magpakaconio pero ayoko rin namang magpakajologs.Ah basta sasabihin ko na lang kung ano ang gusto kong sabihin.Pasintabi sa mga mambabasa kong hindi nakakaintindi ng Tagalog.
Natutuwa ako sa mga blog na napili ng Philippine Blog Awards, ung iba sinave ko sa PC ko at binabasa ko kapag walang magawa.Mahusay talaga ang pinoy magsulat, ung iba magaganda at kapansin pansin din ang mga layout.Pag nagkapanahon, ililink ko sa blog ko ang mga ito.Mas ginanahan tuloy ako magblog at mas gusto kong pagbutihin ang pagsusulat ko.Sabagay ilang buwan pa lang naman akong nandito pero iba talaga ang feeling nasasabi mong lahat ang nasasaloob mo at natututo ka rin sa buhay ng ibang tao.malayo na talaga ang naabot ng teknolohiya ng Internet.
Bukas maghahanap muli ako ng trabaho, ang trabaho ko ngayon ay maghanap ng trabaho.Itatapak ko na naman ang mga paa ko sa Makati at Ortigas. Titingalain ko na naman ang mga matatayog na gusali na nandito.Sana isa sa mga gusaling nandon ay ampunin ako bago magpasko.Matutulog na nga ako.

I miss u

Since I am not in the blog mood tonight. I will just post this song:

I Miss You by Boyz II Men

Thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you AND
I realize, that it was JUST my mind
Playing tricks on me

And it seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Every time the phone rings
I pray to God it's you
And I just can't believe
That we're through

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refuse to believe
That you don't care

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

I've got to gather MY SENSES together
I've been through WORSE kinds of weather
if it's over now
Then I'll be strong
Can't believe that you're gone
I've got to carry over

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Oh there's no other way to say it
I can't deny it
I miss you baby
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Oh no other way to say it
I miss you baby
There's no other
That you're PART OF ME NOW
That you're PART OF ME NOW
I miss you
Said I can't deny it
I, I, I, I miss you baby
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

I am back

I am back from hibernating.Actually, as much as I want to update u guys with what's going on with me right now, there's nothing really new, except that I am now a full time pal(palamunin) again.I resigned fr Teletech bec I cant take the pressure of the job.Lets just say that everyone of us(those fr the call center industry) has his own call center and Teletech is not just for me.As simple as that.

Tindahan ni Aling Nena
We have this small sari sari store in front of the house and now that I am a bum, of course I have no choice now but to look out this fuckin store.I'm living with my mom and sometimes she will just leave all the responsibilities on me to manage it, from buying the stuff on the grocery to watchin out the store when she's not around.It sucks.In the afternoon while I'm in deep slumber wetdreaming and all, I would be disturbed with kids buying just one peso candy or these tambays who will ask u for a stick of cigarette.I wanted to throw the one peso coin on their face.And even if I want to take a bath or do my "stuff" there will always be distraction from these buyers.That's why our house has never been an option as a place for my SEB(sex eyeball) adventure.I know I could really be bitchy sometimes that I will just have to ignore them, I wouldnt care if they shout like hell just to catch my attention (attention my ass), I mean to let them buy of our stuff .You see its not easy to have a store but of course it has its perks also.Aside from getting commissions (kupit), I can eat anything I want and whenever I want to.Plus there are a few cuties who frequent the store.Career ito haha.I know my days of being a sari sari store diva will soon end as I finally find a job tomorrow.good luck to me.

My training for Teletech will be tomorrow.It will start by 4pm and ends by 12am.I dunno, maybe I really miss working that's why I am looking forward on this.New people, new environment,I am really excited about it.I must say that I am nervous thinking about the tests I have to pass to be a legitimate employee.It's so funny, u know that feeling when you just have your first job, that's the same feeling I have right now. I may have the experience in call center already(local call ctr) but this time its international so I'm not that confident with my communication skills,I suck on it.Well, maybe I feel like this because I failed in Etelecare a yr ago when I had my training there.But after that traumatic experience I always wanted to improve myself.Whatever happens, I will do my best just like what I did when I trained in Vertex.I know this time it will not be that easy but nothing is impossible when you put your heart on what you are doing coupled with perseverance and determination.I hope that I will enjoy what I will be doing in Teletech,enjoy the company of new people, learn a lot each day,develop myself in all aspects.I really want to stay in this company for long.If its God' will, I know everything is possible.
I hope I will still be able to blog eventhough I will be busy already with my job.I will ready miss this.

OUT

i watched the newest gay oriented show in gma 7, which premiered tonight-"out",that's the name of the show.it is in to be out, the show's battlecry. i'm so glad that finally we have a show like this in tv.i know those conservative who are not yet ready to embrace or to accept this kind of lifestyle will soon criticize this show.the premier episode is not that fabulous but I am looking forward for their upcoming episodes.I just like that segment where they interviewed gay icon celia rodriguez and also those testimonial part at the beginning of the show.Why those three host, JM,Avi and Jigs decided to finally come out.I heard that one original host from a prominent showbiz family backed out and was replaced by this broadcast journalist JM Cabarubias.I really admire JM it was so brave of him to finally admit that he is gay.I dunno maybe my gaydar failed again but I never thought he is .Until I watched his revelation on tv.I admire this guy more for doing that.Admitting to the whole world that your gay is not easy.I also like the other guy co-host, JigsAnd that lesbian girl,Avi,she's one hot momma.So there, I know Filipinos are not yet ready for a show like this but I believe this will help a lot in letting a lot of people know that bisexuals, gays and lesbians have a place in this society,

Gimme a break

i dunno how am I gonna tell this guy w/out sounding mean that i dont like talking to him anymore. You see, I am honest when I told him that I am not looking for a partner or a friend as of this time.But it seems like he didn't get what I mean when I said that.(I dont want to talk to anybody right now) I am happy and contented in this world of mine, alone but not lonely,single but happy.hehe.I don't actually know him, he was introduced by Kyle this guy from BlueBoys and then he keep on calling me already.Like everynight, not just everynight but three times a day.If he wants SEB, I 'm sorry I'm too tired for that, If he wants realtionship,I don't think he will like me if he will see me,I'm a major nightmare of every eyeball.Yes I think I'm wasting my time talking to him.I hope he would realized that.Well, I know he' s not that boring,I am the boring one.But major turned off: hes kinda full of air that everytime I talk to him I feel like I'm suffocating and I wanna faint.He keeps on talking about how good looking he is.I don't care if he's a Brad Pitt or whoever he think he is.All I know is that I'm just settled in this world of mine, I am not looking for anybody at this time.I hope he soon would realized that.So pls stop calling me, if u are reading this,your just wasting ur time on me,I tell u.
Work will start on Monday.By Tuesday , sis will leave for China.I don't have money already.Plus more zits came out of my fucking face.I paid for our Meralco bill,electricity was cut off this afternoon since bill is overdue.I told my sister that I might stay in a boarding house bec I dont think it will still be able to travel from Bulacan to Pasay everyday.I am actually borrowing money from her that I'll be using as my allowance for next wk.Shame on me, I know I owe my sister a lot, I promise to myself that I'll treat her on my first salary.I will do that, promise.I really think its time for me to be independent now.Not totally independent cause I got used being with my mom and I know I will really miss her.But I think I need some growing up,I know nanay will not be always around,so eventhough I think it will be really hard, I have no choice,boy,I'm already 22 and there's so much to learn and life.So, I'll go out of my shell then fuck all night.hehe.

Me vain?No way!

I am trying to review what happened to me this August eversince I resigned from work.And I cant think of any interesting event that happened.Most of the time I am just here at home, bumming around, wasting my time staring at my PC monitor and tv and pestering my mom every now and then.I still have a week before I start my training in Teletech.I wish to remain a b remain a bum um but I know its impossible.I am no Cojuangco or Lopez but just a Felipe so I have to work a slave for the Americans just to live.So my mom went again to another funeral of a certain relative in Meycauayan today.So invited Bob, a chatter from Meycauayan to come over in the house to do some nasty stuff. Actually we didnt do anything we just kissed.I like the guy but then there is always a thing called wrong timing.I cant have sex in broad daylight hehe.But anyway he promise he'l keep in touch just like my other SEB partners in the past promise.Hindi na ko umaasa.I think I am becoming so vain already.I had my facial yesterday at this clinic in SM marilao then I bought some Kikay products at Watsons.I want to try this St. Ives Hydroxy Masque on my zit filled face.I bought Pond's whitening facial wash and skinwhite whitening facial wash.Yeah I think I have to make myself beautiful.as if.

I finally got hold of my contract in Teletech,basically I just wasted my time going in pasay just to get this fuckin contract.bummer.I also went to school to check on my transcript but classes were suspended and there is no registrar.I just went to SM mla do some window shop,buy jessica zafra's book then went home.And now I'll be online to upload this blog of mine.Yeah right I still cant figure out how to to do this right.

I want to upload my journal on the web but i dunno how to put them together.And still intimidated with those blogs i read in the web.They are products of amazing minds!Anyway I'll try to work this out and so are the things I need to accomplish before I start my training by Sept.6.I feel like I'm messing up again dunno what will I do with this fucking life.And I erased my entry for August 18,which I didnt do on purpose,I just mess up.

Teletech

I am no longer a bum.Teletech hired me.Would u believe that?Tsk tsk.wohoo.(Music:happy).Teletech hiring process is such a breeze.Immediately after I took the exam and had my second interview, Ms. kate told me I was in.I know they consider me because I have call center experience already and that is really an advantage.I just hope that I will be able to give my best and pass the training.The training is really crucial and I dont want to fail just like what happened to me in Etel.I will give my best shot for this.

Tita Yolly died yesterday, August 11 2004 at about this time at the age of 61.may she rest in peace.i pray that wherever she is right now,I hope she is happy, I know she is with the Lord right now, so I dont have any worries.We will be going to Batangas this afternoon to attend the wake of my aunt and symphatize with our relatives.While waiting for my sisters I decided to update my journal here.I'm actually been busy this week looking for my prospective job.
I went to Glorrietta Job Fair yesterday.I noticed that most of the participating companies are call centers.I submitted my resume to some call ctr and decided to leave immediately.I went to Asia Call Center Link in Tower One.I had my interviews and I took the exams.I am not feeling well yesterday.I dont know if I did well in the exam. They will endorsed me to another call ctr in Ortigas and I have to wait for their call but I'm not expectant about it. I actually lost a single contact lens yesterday, which really bothered me.I was afraid that the single contact lens was just in some part of my eye and I might be blind just like what happened to actress Maureen larrazabal.I trust the Lord that nothing like that will happen to me.While taking a bath this morning, I decided to rub my eyes with soap and found the single contact I have been looking for.I know its dangerous to leave this contact lens in my eye overnight,I was really worried about it.God is really good because He didnt allow something bad will happen to my eyes.I was really thankful about that.
I am starting to be insomniac again.I cant sleep last night.I have been thinking about my situation right now, my being jobless and all.I am afraid of rejections, just like what I had experienced before.But then again I trust the Lord and there is still confidence in me, I know in every interview Ill have I put my best foot forward.I was also attacked by insecurities. Most of my batchmates in college have already established themselves on whatever field they chose to be. Most of them have stable jobs already.I was really insecure about that.Academically speaking, I know myself that were of the same level.I have discipline and I am dedicated to what I am doing, I know that.But I also realized my ningas kugon attitude will bring me nowhere.I promise to myself that once I found the job that Ive been looking for, my dream job, I will stick to it, no matter what happens.Because of boredom, I lose my job in Vertex, and I regret resigning, I miss the people more than anything else.But I have to move on, i always have a hard time moving on but this time I really have to otherwise I will end up frustrated or depressed.

PLM Homecoming

It's been a while...Where will I begin?Hmmm, went to school yesterday to have my clearance sign by our dean.I really miss my school,the first thing I did was I go around the campus to check if there's a new building and to check those places I usually hangout.Nothing's really new except that theres a new big stage built at the side of the field,I think this year's graduation was held in PLM not in PICC.The building for the graduate school is being used already.At least for a year there's improvement.I can't help but reminisce my old college days,I miss going to school.I was seen by a former prof and she invited me to be a panelist for a thesis defense, it was flattering believe me, considering that I was not one of the best students in our college before,methinks.So I went, and I cant believe I found myself asking questions to these students,its a preliminary defense actually.It's a great feeling to be a panelist, pretending that you know the answers to your questions but in fact you're just there to ask, that is your job. I know I suck during our defense in college last year,I know it was hell during that time and I hate our panelist.I hate them for throwing stupid questions on us.The world is really round.Now its me asking stupid questions.I just handled two pairs of proponents,cause I need to submit my clearance at the registrar before five. So I looked for M. Regala, Computer Science chairperson and have my clearance signed.I may not be that popular during our college days but good thing he still remember me. He asked me where am I working already and even my salary.He actually discussed something about investment and savings, he makes sense in some ways but I know where our conversation is going,he will offer an insurance plan or something which has to do with security plans.Gee, I know it, but he didnt actually offer the thing straight to my face, he beat around the bush first then left his no. for me to contact him just I decided to invest with him.Some people are really desperate just to earn money,what if he knew that I'm already a bum, and the figures I have given him about my salary and stuff werent true.I know he wouldn'tt waste his time for me if he know that already.lol.

Oh I miss mah job

I am not the mood to write today, I want to hangout somewhere else,but I dunno where... I feel like there's a lot of things I should be doing right now like getting my transcript, changing the water of our aquarium,laundry or shoppingmy stuff in Divisoria or Greenhills(Now you know where I buy my stuff).I can only afford those things they sell in Tiangge,I'm one practical person u know. I would also want to look for a job already before staying home bored me to hell.And read some books,some intellectually stimulating stuff,I feel like my mental muscles are not working already,it needs some exercise.It sucks to feel this way,to be bored this way. I miss my job. I really do.

Tita Yolly

My Tita Yolly is in a very critical situation right now.Tita Yolly is my mom's sister .We have to go to batangas to visit her and be there for her whatever happens.My mom and Tita are really close.I know its still GOD who will decide on her fate but I dont want my Tita Yolly to suffer that much from the complications thats torturing her right now.I have seen how her body reacted to all those medicine and treatment given to her.How she endure all the pain and suffering.I know Tita has been a good person.I pray to God that her family would be able to accept whatever will happen to her.My Tita and I may not be that close but I will always remember her hospitability and warmth,everytime we would go to Batangas to visit them.I would always remember all the fortune telling sessions and kuwentuhan I had with her.I will really miss her if anything bad will happen.But we want to assure her that whatever happens my family would always be at her side, to support her and her family.Tita Yolly, we love you ,I still dont know what your situation right now.I still have to find out yet.Everything I know is in God's hands.I still believe in miracle. I know many will feel sad if God will take you at this time.I would like you to know that we pray recovery, we pray for peace to reign to u and ur family.I hope God will watch you,and we aill be watching you also.
I just cried when i went to her side.She's been bedridden for few days already and the doctor actually told my mother to transfer her to a bigger hospital.My mother refuse to because she's afraid that Tita will be tortured once transferred to a bigger hospital....to be continue

Moving on

I still have one day to go before finally I bid goodbye to my call center life in Vertex.i still have to finalize my resignation and that three day leave letter.so sad thinking bout my old friends,i really hate goodbye but i know life has to move on,im excited what will happen after this.pupulutin na lang kaya ako sa kangkungan?
I didn't report today for work,told my TL that I have LBM, which is true.I know its bearable,but what is not bearable is the time I will spent on my 4 to 1 shift.Christian (my ex) and I talked over the phone after I got a txt from him telling me that he needs a friend right now.I just realized today that if I cant be a perfect lover to him, I want to be a perfect friend.Being a PLU is not easy and this friend of mine we've been thru a lot in our relationship and I want him to feel that Im just beside him especially if he's down and needs someone to talk to.I invited him to come over in the house , mom is not here, so I was left at home alone.I must admit I was not excited seeing him.I know I was obviously cold because I refrain to answer some of his questions like whom am I dating or if I am committed right now.I want him to respect my privacy but it seemed that he's so nosy what's going on with my sex and love life.Christian is still the same insecure guy I used to know.He keep on asking if the guys Im dating right now is as good looking as he is.Told him Im not a superficial person but he didn't believe me.So there we kissed we cuddle, we had sex.I miss him,true, but why is it that I cant remember the feeling anymore when I was madly inlove with him, before I can bear anything,do everything for him, but now makes me wonder when crazy before for this guy.For hours we just talked everything that happened in his life for the past months.Then he told me that Brad(his Lover) and him broke up a week ago because of a third party.I know that guy is a slut and I should have forewarned him that that asshole is a player.But I shut up,and just watched him getting hurt again.I know he'll get over it.Basta I let him feel that I'm just beside him, being a friend.We can't help but laugh everytime we call each other bestfriend,yeah I guess much better than our endearment "honey".Brad actually txt him and wanted to reconciliate and talk.So even if I want Xtian to sleep here at the house I told him to listen to Brad, maybe things will still be patched up.I accompany him catching for the last trip.Now I came to my senses,now everything is clear to me, I'm over this guy,life has to move on.:)

My restday,I have been resting for three days now.Yes it also bores me to hell thinking of things I should be doing.Movie watching bores me now.I'm done watching the 6 films I rented last night.What will I gonna do today?
Flirting 101.This guy from Baliwag called me up last night.We actually met two weeks ago,had sex but after that havent heard anything from him.I'm not considering him to be my buddy.He's not a buddy material.He's not that good looking and he bores me everytime he talk.But I can say , he's sweet.I'm not closing my door on him (ang haba ng buhok kong kalbo)I miss that feeling of being cared for.Lets see,I might give it a try.

There is one yahoogroup of Bulacan bisexuals/g ays I joined in.They call themselves BluVoys its a good thing to find a community here in Bulacan.Well everytime I chat I am always finding someone from Bulacan, i will no longer have a hard time looking now since most members of the group are from Bulacan.I dunno if I will make myself active on this org.But I am looking forward to the future activities they will have.

Lazy ass

I have been absent in the office for two days now.so just to describe my present condition, its like this:Mas mahirap pala yung ganito, ung parang naghihintay, para bang nauupos na kandila, na unti unting natutunaw.Ang gusto koy hipan na lang hangin bigla ang natitirang liwanag, para magdilim pagkatapos ay sindihan muli at magsimula uling lumiwanag.
I know I dont make sense as usual but just read on.

I went to videoshop and rented 6 movies last nyt, Munting Tinig (Small Voices), Hey Arnold, Quiz Show, Shaolin Soccer, One Hour Photo and Liar Liar.I am planning to watch all of these films in one night.But so far the only film I have seen was Mga Munting Tinig.Lets have a sorta movie review here.I now consider this movie as one of the best Filipino movies, on my personal list of fave.The story and direction was good, cinematography is ok,no wonder it competed and was noticed in competitions abroad.Alessandra de Rossi's is the lead actress. I really find this girl charming and acting wise she's good enough.Not a heavy dramatic film but a film full of heart.They have a nice setting its very Filipino,story revolves on the kids on the rural areas, that there is hope,I mean alessandra's character as a teacher in the film manage to give hope to these children whom I think should have the privilidge to be educated and to dream.It open your eyes to a lot of realities.So go and rent this movie.I know I dont sound convincing but anyway, just go ahead and see it.I'm happy i was able to see a film as good as this.
So there, I am seeing myself in two weeks time, just hooked up on the television and on my computer.Well,I'm planning to engage in sports like badminton or go to the gym, but I doubt I will able be to put my plans into action.I hope I could think of things I could do for the weeks, not just bum around.So gimme a break.

SO THIS IS GOODBYE

I realized that I am slowly being burned out with the kind of work I'm doing...For eight months, I find myself handling almost a hundred calls everyday, some are good, some are worth to be remembered and cherished,and some I just have to forget.But some calls will still make me smile everytime I remember them,most especially those bloopers I made that drives the QA people crazy....The prankies, I will reli miss them.Eventhough how much irritated I am everytime they call,I know they've been a part of my so called call center experience.Most especially the kids,the like of Angelika and the prankies call center company,I will always remember them esp everytime I see a phone booth on a corner with kids playing on it.I cant help but remember them.The irate callers that i was able to pacify and i dont have to escalate.Those irate callers that are mad on the start of conversation but at the end of the call still manage to thank me after assuring them that I will do some action for their complaints.On the other hand, the Irate callers that I have escalated will also be remembered,they will be remembered bec they insult me, curse me and push me to to be a better CSR.I thank them because every Irate caller I handle,made my call center experience worthwhile and challenging at the same time.Its them that add variety and color to my monotonous call center life.The maangas callers from makati areas, the elite people,Baron Geisler and Jackie Forster, the foreigners who twisted my tongue and force me to speak in American twang,I will always recall how I manage to level myself with them naks..I will miss CJ, that girl who arouse every guy in the floor because of her seductive voice.That girl who once threaten me that she will drop by in Vertex and tell my supervisor to fire me because Im extremely mean to her.CJ if you will be able to read this I will surely miss you,too bad I wont able to lick and taste ur...secret hehe.I will miss callers I handled from Cebu and the Visayas area, their kanangs and their forced Tagalog speaking tongue will surely be a music to my ear now .I really do appreciate them bec they are so polite unlike callers from urban areas.They(visayas) will always try to reach out for a Tagalog CSR, (though I think sometimes we can be too intimidating to them),always been malambing, eventhough it takes years for Globe to repair their phone and lastly I never felt so respected everytime they call me Sir.I will never forget that.

I finally decided to quit.Nothing and noone can change my decision now.Ive been thinking of it for how many days.I will not renew my contract.
I know I will really miss Vertex, most especially the people I worked with.My batchmates, Sandy, Rohnell, Louie and Rochelle.And those friends I have from the other batches and other acct like GHP and Alorica.Too bad they are too many cant mention them here.I will miss them.I will miss my adorable and patient TLs Miss dofe, Miss Marj, Miss Jacqui, Sir Onin, Sir Jeff and Sir Clint,they have been part of being the better person that Iam now.And the Qa people and people from other dept will surely be remembered.As much as I want to cling on the friendship I have with them,I think its also time to give time for myself, to think, to reflect, to reevaluate my life.This is the time that I give time for my family,my friends, my nanay most especially.Some people may whine and give rants that working in a call center is boring,no social life, will destroy your body clock, will make u less competitive, I dont care, because I believe my experience is all worth it,I live it to the fullest and the people I worked with and the callers I talked to are real people and great people that i will never forget.

These and thousand things will be remembered,I know Vertex has contributed a lot for who I am right now.And I will be forever grateful with that.

TGIpayday

Still undecided to continue my contract or not, whatever my decision will be I hope its what God wants to happen in my life. I always been deceived with my thoughts, making wrong decisions in my life.Like that Gary V song Di na Natuto.

Another day.Hoping that this day will be productive and I hope I will manage to put some zealousness and enthusiasm on my work.Maybe its time to be thankful that I'm not one of those unemployed people in this country.

Wohoo its payday,everyone is looking forward on this day.Money,this is my motivation now,whenever I feel like quitting.This is one of the reasons that I have to go to work.

El Labandero

Just finished washing tons of clothes,alot actually including my mom's.So here I am, still wet,fresh from labahan,has aching back,aching head actually evrything aches,including my heart.Ouch. but I dont mind.The world has gone mad again,the rain started pouring really hard outside.The weather disrupted my plans of going out.I have no choice but share the thoughts thats on top of my head now.First of all, my plan of not renewing my contract has been bothering the hell out of me.I actually have the contract and they want me to work for them until December.I'm still undecided if i would continue my contract .So I check on the pros and cons about this.CONS 1)no assurance that ill have a job in a month 2)can't take being a bum, stay at home and be a palamunin again 3)no moolah, no money no honey 4)ill miss my friends (yeah as if the will miss me) 5)job hunting again, sickening interviews and exams PROS 1)no longer i will be bored with the same fucking callers I encounter everyday 2)time to give myself a break and unwind 3)think of better things to do like getting a second course or refreshing my programming skills 4)hunting for my new buddy oh well...
My finances has been bothering me,I am slowly running outta money. I know for the past few months I havent control my spending,I will go to Gimik places like Malate or in the mall whenever I want to. I lose track of my priorities like buying CD-writer or scanner,which Ive been planning for ages, buying a microwave oven or just any functional appliance for my mom,getting a new cellphone, paying our bills.So where have my money gone?.I really dont know how to handle money.For the past eight months,ive been splurging my money with shits that i dont need.It will be really hard for me if I wil loss my job and I better think carefully before I resign.

U got blog...

Everyone's into it.I read some entries and I find it cool and interesting, some people I dunno,I just start browsing and find myself taking a peek of whats going on with their lives and just to check if mine is still normal compare to theirs.It makes me think that each of us has his story to tell.And somehow there are stories I can relate to.I must say blogging is really addicting.I am keeping a journal, the conventional one, since I was in Hi-School but its not for public consumption unlike a blog where everyone will feast their eyes on your entries.But I think an online journal is also a good way of updating your friends cause sometimes you dont have time to talk to them since life can get as busy as hell.So they can just check their blog to check if ur still existing.Now I am starting mine.So just read on the misadventures and boring stuff in my so called life.

I should have prepare myself now to work...It's one boring sunday.Its a bliss to think the tomorrow will be my restday.But I dont think I would be able to rest.We work 6 days a week and I never enjoyed my restday since I start working here in Vertex.I was thinking of inviting Xtian(an ex of mine) to watch killbill2 tomorrow, heard its really a good movie, far better than the first one, but I'm having second thought of doing so.Yes, I am not yet over him,even how much I deny it.Things are far different now.Why would I believe that he really misses me and still love me? I'm not willing to be his kerida,I cant imagine myself being one.Yes I miss him but he's not the only dick in this world.I dont wanna appear pathetic this time.I know I will be able to get over him in time.He's happy, so why would I meddle with his happiness.If I am the one who is committed right now, I will never allow anybody to interfere.And maybe I just have to tell the other person to go away and get a life.